Guilty About Guilty Pleasures.

Why do I feel so guilty being lazy? It's such a rare thing, you'd think I'd treasure it. God damn Catholic guilt. I haven't gone to church since I was 15. I don't even remember the 'Our Father' (In my head it goes something like, "Our Father, 'Tis of Thee...") Yet this Catholic guilt/ProtestantAmerican worth ethic FORBIDS ME watching TV without some pangs of regret. I should be doing something better with my life. Well, tonight I should be at the Walkmen show, but I don't want to talk about it. Besides that, there's really nothing else I NEED to be doing. But I can't finish my movie until I've accomplished something. So I'm writing this scattered post to prove myself worthy of the last hour of "The Last Picture Show."

I'm loving this summer, as you may have read. I don't have school to worry about, and my band is no stress. As long as I keep the house clean, dinner on the table, son healthy, I've got no restrictions, no stress. Jeremy's been staying up late, which means I can too without having to sacrifice any sleep since he's been sleeping til at least 8. It's been nearly 90 here every day for a week so every afternoon Jeremy and I have spent at least an hour in the pool. Well slept, tan, I haven't been this relaxed in a while.

Which is sad considering I can't watch a movie at 10 o'clock at night without feeling like I'm stealing the time from something more meaningful. I guess part of my brain thinks I should be working on my Great American Novel right now. F it. I'm watching TV.

Listening to:
The Walkmen - The Rat right click to open in a new window. And then tell me how tonight's show was.

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